Unanswered Questions

I think I may be too logical and realistic for my own good. I am an annoying blend of dreamer and of one who prefers the safe route. I have known from the beginning that I do not want to be a starving artist. I do not want to spend my entire life wondering where my next paycheck is coming from. Many artists like to put a positive spin on this. They like to say "life as an artist is always an adventure", and that not knowing how you are going to pay your bills the next month "keeps things interesting" but I am not made that way. Maybe it was unwise for me to choose this career. Or was it? Because every time I come to this conclusion I always have the same question... "What else would you like to do instead?" And that is when my mind goes blank. My entire life has revolved around singing, acting, performing, directing, teaching, a.k.a 'The Arts'.

So, I am always going back and forth between the artistic voice inside of me, and the voice of reason. When I focus on the 'reason' side of myself, however, I can never move very far in that direction without turning back. Whenever I think about getting a 'safe' job, such as a 9-5 desk job outside of my field, I realize there is no way I could ever do that. I have known since elementary school that I would do everything I could to have a job I love and feel I was meant to do, and still, I cannot see myself letting that go. Ever.

I know there is a reason the Lord has set me on this path, but I have yet to know His intentions... Is there anyone out there with some good advice for me?

Hello world. You feel so very broad and overwhelming from the vantage point of my computer, but I move forward anyway, blindly into the unknown without any prediction as to what my future will hold in 5 years, 1 year, or even two months from now. I assume these are the feelings that most young musical theater majors have in the first few weeks after graduation, and though my feelings are normal, it doesn't make them any less scary. The next two months of my life will consist of assistant directing a production of Peter Pan, teaching two acting classes at a youth theater program in town, and developing my private teaching clientele. After that, who knows. I have several possibilities up in the air, but none are finalized... I guess I should look at this new chapter of my life as an adventure, yes? Well, here I go, whether I like it or not, so I might as well make the best of it! Onward!